Because I can complain.

I tell you this weather is getting to me. I try very hard everyday to NOT complain. Ok, I still do .. I can't help it. But I try to not complain CONTINUOUSLY throughout the day. And I try my best to not let it affect how I deal with my girls.

Cos man, the heat sure makes me super grumpy. I can't help it !! It's really hot. And you just feel not and bothered. And super sticky. The whole day.

How to stand it? I can't. And I'm trying oh so hard to NOT switch on my air conditioners daily in the afternoons. We already have them on the whole night. And our electricity bill is erm, not low. It would be far worse if I were to be trigger happy with the air con in the afternoons.

So, now I suffer. Suffer the whole damn afternoon.

It's killing me. I try to think of reasons to linger on at the malls just so I can be in air conditioned cool comfort.

And to think we have to suffer like this till near year end. Seriously.

I was lamenting to The Hubby the other day. Why didn't I marry someone overseas? Why? Then I wouldn't be suffering here in this tropical weather.

He, of course ignored me. Lol.

I'm dreading the rest of the year. It's going to be a long HOT year. And we aren't going ANYWHERE for a holiday this year. Nowhere at all. Bummer for me. 365 days of being stuck here. 365 days. Man, that's miserable. There's only so many times you can go to the zoo here. Lol.

Now that I'm approaching 40 .. I don't think I'm left with many years to go to all the places I've dreamt of visiting when I was younger. I try not to think of it. Once in awhile it hits me and I get depressed about it. I really thought I'd see a few more places by now. I really thank God we lived in the States those 2 years or I think I would have travelled nowhere.

I used to have a best friend who travelled at least once or twice a year with her family. While it was awesome hearing about her holidays, it was also very very tough to hear. Especially when you don't get to go anywhere. After we got back from the States in 2004, I was stuck here for 6 years. It was awful to think that I had just let those years of my life go by without traveling. Not even to nearby destinations. We finally went to Club Med Indonesia in 2010 and then went on a cruise last year 2012.

I've been armchair traveling as its called since I was young. Back then, we didn't have the money to go anywhere and my Dad really wasn't the kind who took his family on holidays. He wasn't interested in traveling so too bad for us. My mom only finally started traveling abroad AFTER they got divorced - good for her. She didn't have enough money to take all 3 of us kids and so most times, she would take the youngest. At the time, we didn't mind because we knew we'd have plenty of time for traveling when we became adults.

Well. I'm almost 40 now. And I'm still stuck at home watching travel shows.

Man, I hate this heat. It really gets to me.