As The Days Go By

Yes, so I haven't blogged in awhile. And it's already mid-February! Gosh, time is just flying by. Charlotte is in nursery this year. She's 4 years old. She's hating it though ..  She'd much rather be home or out with me.
 
LOL.


I am loving it. Am I an awful awful mom for saying that? hahaha. right now, I don't care!! I happily dump her in class (and she's crying away) and scamper off to meet my bestie for lunch. Hell, we even managed to take in a movie a few weeks ago. What did we watch ? .. Jupiter Ascending. My gosh, Channing Tatum is HOT in it. Mila Kunis is too lar, but you know .. The Bestie and I were too busy drooling over Tatum to notice her much.

I am loving zumba class. I take it once a week. I am trying to increase the frequency. It's not so much for weight loss as it is for just keeping fit somewhat. Prancing and jumping around a pathetic once a week ain't gonna turn me SKINNY *snorts*

 It's just to keep the guilt at bay .. the guilt of living what is basically a sedentary life. Yea, I am going up and down ferrying my girls everywhere. But that's just it. I am ferrying them around in my super comfy, air conditioned MPV. Listening to music.

Plus, I wanted to bring my blood pressure down.


And guess what? It has!! My blood pressure which was on the high side for the last 3 years plus is now ok.


Thank God,


Ah yes, this is another of my favourite songs currently. I am loving "Bridges" by Broods.  The brother and sister duo hail from New Zealand .. I love Georgia Notts'voice. It has such a haunting quality to it.

Broods - Never Gonna Change

I love this song. Then again, I like Alternative music .. this has a been of electronic/trance in it though. I've listened to it many times.

Wild wild love

Yes, I've already mentioned this several times .. I love my Kindle Fire tablet. I ALWAYS have all 2500 books with me. I can reread any one of them any time .. and I have so many TBR (to be read) books, it's not funny.

Anyway, my Kindle Fire died. Actually, it didn't die die. There was something wrong with the mini USB port so lo and behold, the darn thing couldn't be charged. AT ALL.

How am I supposed to read all the 2500 plus books on my Kindle if the thing cannot be charged?

I scoured the internet to find out why and later that night, my wonderful handy hubby tried to fix it (I found a You Tube video).

I knew he had never used a soldering iron before (neither have I for that matter) but I was willing to risk it. What was the worst that could happen? The thing was as good as dead if I couldn't charge it anyway.

Alas, it was a good effort on his part but it could not be fixed. *sob*

Sooooooooo,

Momma has a NEW Kindle Fire HDX 7" !! I wanted the 64gb one but they were out of stock so I settled for a 32 gb one. No matter .. that is more than enough for thousands of books !!

Woooooooo hooooooooooooooo!!

Ok, I don't actually have it yet. But the guy who bought it for me at my hubby's request will be back in October with it ..

I am so psyched !! Yes, I am a gadget person .. and I love new gadgets ... I loved my Kindle Fire (it was a first generation model) .. and while it still worked perfectly (other than the charging issue) .. I had admittedly been drooling over the newer models recently. LOL.

Until then, I am using my Kindle Paperwhite. I swiped it back from my eldest .. she has exams anyway .. she has no business reading now. LOL.

While I love the slim lightweight Paperwhite .. I hate that it's in black and white (ugh) and the teeny capacity (measely 2 gb .. who can live with that?!! that's like under a 1000 books or so) .. I am happy it has a built in light though, thank goodness. So temporarily, I am without all 2500 plus of mine. But not for long. Hehe.

Neon lights

Today, I had an IPL appointment. I gave up Brazilian waxing awhile ago and opted for IPL instead. More expensive but the Intense Pulsed Light treatments do not hurt the same way waxing does.

Well,  generally it does not.

I think I have a decent pain threshold. After all, I had my babies without pain medication or epidural. And I did not scream. Or yell. While giving birth I mean.

Anyway, back to IPL. I like the results. Although it is just light, the damn thing that emits the light is also hot. Hot I tell you. Like a freaking iron.

The lady technician applied a very cold gel..  made sense since the damn thing was going to be hot as hell. Then she made several passes over my skin.

Had it been my leg or arm, I would be totally okay with it.

But it was not my arm or leg. It was my "down there".. LOL.
 

And trust me when I say, I was cringing as the damn thing got closer to the really sensitive part. F-ing thing was hot!! 

Lol.
All I could do was pray. And try to not look horrified.

Bestie laughed when I sent a text later. She said I should give up my Christian Grey fantasies if I couldn't handle IPL ..

WTF. lol. I never said I had Christian Grey fantasies. I just mentioned to her that I had read the books. And I may or may not have expressed a mild fascination with the whole BDSM thing. That's it. Hahaha!

Besides, nowhere in the books were there any use of IPL implements lar. 

Bugger bestie. 

Here's a shot of the torture instrument used .. *shudder* 

Heartless

So.

I already feel self conscious wearing sundresses. Not that I hunch my shoulders  or anything like that. I'm just aware that I am not slim. More so wearing a dress.

I was at a restaurant with some friends of mine. We were discussing what we wanted to order and had decided on the pasta.

Lo and behold, this stranger, decided to be helpful and let us know that the pasta was not a huge serving. And that it might not be enough for me. Yes, he said that. And he looked directly at me. Plus, my lunch companions were on the tiny side so.. 

Sigh.

I was mortified. See what I have to deal with? People look at me and think I must eat a mountain of food.

I politely informed him that it was fine and  later ignored him when he tried saying something else.

I'm sure he thought he was being nice. Or maybe not. Whatever. While I'm not the type to cry over such an incident, it doesn't mean I was not embarrassed by it. I just try to not let it bother me too much.

So I'm not pretty or slim. I know that. I'm finally trying to be ok with my size. That's why I'm trying to wear other types of clothing besides the stuff I'm comfortable with. Like dresses. Especially sun dresses. I like feeling the sun or air con on my bare shoulders. I'm sorry if my not-skinny arms offend you. Don't stare at them then. Or that my butt is huge. Look away. Lol.

OR I could just maybe, get bigger sized friends. Lol.

Colors

I accidentally discovered Yuna while I was in the Dorothy Perkins store last week. "Colors" was playing and I really liked it. Of course, at the time, I had no clue who she was but well, Google is my friend .. and after googling snippets of the lyrics, her name and the song title came up.

And I was surprised to find out that she isn't an American singer. She's Malaysian !!

AWESOME.

Her voice is lovely. She sings beautfully. Have a listen to her song "Colors".

Do you want to build a snowman?

Man, I'd give anything to have snow right now. It has been unbearably hot these past few days. really scorching hot.

And being not skinny, it's hard to wear sundresses .. I am uncomfortable showing my shoulders and generally that amount of upper body skin. My legs are fine. I don't think I have tree trunk legs, well, they aren't supermodel thin (roll eyes) but at least they aren't thick and stumpy.

Anyway, it's been really really hot. I am rethinking my stand.

My yoga pants are comfy. But they are warm. Especially NOW.

So, when Dorothy Perkins had a one for one offer on their cotton sundresses, I ended up buying two.

It's not like I look super fabulous in them. I still look erm, fat. I just don't give a hoot. I choose to not look too long into the mirror when I am wearing any one of them.

LOL.

Of course, my helpful *not* second eldest daughter, asked me outright whether I planned on wearing the dress out of the house when she saw me in it yesterday. HAHAHA. I glared at her and asked her what she meant.

My maid (who I pay a salary to every month) and my eldest daughter (think "blind loyalty" here) .. both said I looked nice. *snort*

I am not delusional.

As I was telling my bestie. Clothes in general, look better on skinny people. ANYTIME. Skinny people look fine in LEAVES I'm sure. Look at the Adam and Eve. They're skinny .. lol.